The world of today is that of heartbreak. The thing that defines you as an individual is how you put the pieces back together tomorrow. -AD

Quarter life crisis
I think i've finally realized what a quarter life crisis really is. I speak for myself but i know many people my age who are struggling with some of the same feelings.
Quarter life crisis is like the middle child syndrome, which i dont think i suffer any longer but it definitely shaped alot of my childhood and teen 'actions'.
'Too big to be little to little to be big'. I think this is the same premise as quarter life crisis, were all struggling for independence, but at times its just not possible and we needs to rely on someone else.
I thought this up cause i found a puppy in the park and i took him because he cant stay alone in a forest all night and also he'd probably get hit by a car. I called like 15 different numbers and noone could help me but bounce me back and forth from voicemail to voicemail. I felt so mad that noone would help me.
I spend most my days pinning over how i cant be independent because im still a student and all that shit but here i was begging for someones help. I know its normal to have to ask for help but there is a fine line between wishing u could take care of it all on your own and needing someone else.

“For each petal on the shamrock this brings a wish your way. Good health, good luck, and happiness for today and every day.” - irish blessing

I went to vegas and i won 300$ with 20$ i found in the airport. My friends said i was really lucky. When they asked me where i got my sun glasses... i told them i had found them and they were laughing saying i was the luckiest person they've met. But is luck based on chance winnings of money or prizes or on how much stuff you find like money or designer sunglasses. Maybe its a combination of finding things and that leading you to winning i don't know. To be honest i find alot of money ive found like at least 200$ in the last 5 years. But i also lose so much stuff! so maybe its a trade off. Perhaps luck changes, up until beginning of 2010 i had never won anything but it seems that my luck has turned.

Life isnt life if it just happens, sometimes you need to plan.

I'm on a path, I have a goal, I'm going somewhere (not sure where yet though). In my head all these years, life in general had been quite mapped out, school, school and more school. Things happen at the right times. But thanks to facebook I'm seeing that life doesn't happen in a sequence defined by strict rules. I see some of my friends from elementary holding one year old babies, married and living in pretty suburban homes. It shocks me because I think 'how does she already have a baby? a small person, healhty growing in her arms, smiles all around'. I just feel like its such a distant future for me. But maybe these things happen in the blink of an eye.

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

People seem to get nostalgic about a lot of things they weren't so crazy about the first time around. ~Author Unknown

Spring is in the air, along with that the travel bug is acting up. Spring is the time when people book their summer trips and nothing reminds you more of travel than the sun.
Lately i keep having nostalgic feelings of trips ive been on and it kills me! I keep having feelings of going away, that feeling of unknown, uncertainty, adventure and curiosity. I really want to plan another trip. Soon im suposed to go away, actually in about a week and a half but we have to find a good price. The travel bug does exist and its a disease in those who have caught it that stirrs up every once in a while and needs to be medicated with a plane ticket to somewhere unknown.