Not all those who wander are lost.

They say some like to live in a constant state of drama or even a constant state of crisis. Maybe some of us also like to live in a constant state of uncertainty. To be honest, sometimes not knowing what you are doing with your life might be better than knowing exactly what is going to happen. What is so bad about not knowing what may come tomorrow of your actions today? Sometimes people like to move themselves into places where things are uncertain, where things can go either way just because it makes life more interesting. Being secure, settled and decided starts to define who we are by our bounded actions. Maybe some of us prefer never to settle even though inside it may be what we think we are supposed to need. Being free is potential for anything, potential for change, growth, transformation. You can decide each an every day what will happen, instead of having something tell you exactly how it will go.

TV revolution

Sometimes i start work at 630 am. Why? im not sure, but it does is give me time to check multiple blogs im following as well as get an early start on the Food Network. I now watch 8 hours of food network a day...on mute. I expect to be an expert chef by the end of the year. So far the only things ive really picked up are sweet potato french fries and how to assemble a Tuducken, which is a chicken, in a duck, in a turkey. (eew)
Anyway TV is not very good anymore, I dont know why people get so upset when their TV wont be installed today, or it breaks and can only be fixed tomorrow. Some say their kids are addicted to TV and they NEED it back. Well, atleast you are admitting you would put them outside if they would go. What do kids even watch anymore? None of the good tv shows are on anymore, i miss Flinstones and Ernie and Bert sharing a room at age 30+. I miss learning how to draw on Mr. Dressup. That portion of the show was like watching the adult learn how to paint show. (Guy with the afro, remember?). Kids would never buy into a silent ten minutes of drawing on TV.
I currently have every channel possible and I still find nothing to watch. The only fun stuff to watch is Animal Planet and National GEO, as long as its not history. This is what my kids are going to watch. They are going to be biologists by age 5, forget watching "illegal immigrant" Dora the lost explorer, like they say... GET A GPS Dora.

Lonely was the song I sang, until the day you came. -JM

Are we really never alone? If that is true then how did the word lonely even come to exist? The loneliest place I know, is the place where the most people gather in a single space. Have you ever felt alone in a crowded room? The crowded room being the internet? I find the internet to be a sad lonely space, a desolate land of endless nothing. Maybe the internet has become and increasingly lonely place for me because ive cut off most of my ties to the networking sites like Facebook and MSN, FB chat. Its kind of interesting to see who is really in your life when you don't have a screen to bring you together. I'm wondering if this transition has really changed the way i feel about the relationships in my life. But i cant go back, I cant continue to pretend that all these relationships i have with people are real just because they are on a list. Maybe it is this sad realization that the most of these "friendships" aren't real without the screen in between. I wonder what would happen to the "now" generation if they took it all away, if we had to actually speak in person, call each other, and make an effort to remember someones birthday.