“Order is never observed; it is disorder that attracts attention because it is awkward and intrusive.” EL

There are some relationships with people that are always awkward. I ran into a few of this them weekend. 1) when you dont register the guy, whose calls you always ignore in your new phone, he calls and you answer and ask who is this?
2)An ex says your name while out, and you cant tell your friends who it is, till 20 min later (he had a hat on!)
3)Running into the guy that you've run into several times before however each time its weird. (so this time i chose to just ignore to avoid the newest awkward encounter, but i wonder if he saw me too and did the same thing)
I think the best thing to do is acknowledge the awkwardness in any situation, except maybe the phone one....with that one you both pretend to make plans for a coffee "soon", hang up and save that number under "awkward dont answer"

“Beggars fear no rebellion”

Theres a flow to society, some people like to fall outside this flow and break social norms but to be honest i really like to just blend in.
This is why i find that people dont give money to people playing instruments in the metro and on the street. In Square Victoria metro ive seen more than a few really talented singers and musicians playing for money. I just find that when your walking with 100 people down a corridor nobody can really stop to search their bag or pocket for change. Im either going into work or trying not to miss the metro, you cant stop.
I also feel like everyone would stare, and think a variety of things from shes nice to shes crazy, I guess she likes the music or shes got tons of money, or how could she like that?
Today I gave a guy 50 cents for playing a giant chello, he wasnt one of the best and he definitely didnt say thank you in words. I may have seen it in a nod or the eyes but I was too concentrated on my leap outside the marching line to work to register the moment.
I like the most of them though, except a woman yesterday, I had to bite my lip to not laugh because she was singing terribly about leaving work at 5 oclock. I did enjoy the hand drummer at 830am he was pretty upbeat but really made me feel like I was in a herd of wild animals.
I can only imagine what its like to be them putting themselves out there. Today I saw a guy just sittin there holding out his hat and I thought, atleast sing, do something! but then I thought, would I give thim money then? and I still wouldnt have. A) because most people suck, B) I just dont like doing it purely for the action.

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