Gaga Monster

GAGA Love Her
Please listen to the following
-Dance in the Dark
-Monster
-So happy i could die
-Speechless
-Bad Romance
-Paparazzi
-Alejandro

This girl is nuts she hits all the right spots. Music, actual talent, honesty, super down to earth, so out there, fashion and shes only 23!
I had crappy seats at her concert and there was a few technical difficulties but this girl deserves a ton of credit because she is just so spec. She also makes loving her easy as if you are a part of her community, she does call all her fans her 'Monsters'. She bares her teeth as a trademark and her music is pop, dance, and retro all at once.
She also has a great butt which she often displays.

Tricks are for Kids

I was just thinking about how we like to trick ourselves alot. For example setting the alarm thirty minutes before you actually need to get up so you can press snooze 5 times and trick yourself into thinking that those extra snoozes were your ticket to wakefulness all day.
Or setting the clock ten minutes ahead. How does that work!? Every time id look at it I would just factor in that time. Okay I need to leave at 9 clock says 9.... im not leaving, im so wasting ten minutes doing something else.
Hiding the clock at the gym, okay this one kind of works but there is alot of other stuff I need to see on that screen! Sometimes I just try to divert my eyes from seeing it. Kinda hard, i'm always disappointed when I look at the cardio machine clock.
Writing in font ten so that when you change it to twelve you magically have 3 extra pages done.
Parking on the right side of the street so when you turn the car on there's still gas.
Its kinda funny to think that we think we can trick ourselves even though we know the truth.

“The basic tool for the manipulation of reality is the manipulation of words. If you can control the meaning of words, you can control the people who must use the words.” PKD

Everyone likes to get reactions out of people. I find its one of the most effective ways of getting what you want. You say whatever you need to say to get a persons position on something. Then judging by their reactions you make your decision/move. The catch is you cant be afraid to put yourself out there for a bit in order to gauge a response. Afterward you can just take back all that you said to repair the damage.

There's also times where you can say or tell anything to someone and you don't care what their reaction is. Maybe that person will always be a friend and forgiving. For example if you tell someone off cause you get upset but you know that eventually they will forgive you, there is nothing you could say to get rid of them.

There's also times where a person just annoys you so you say all the stuff you know they don't want to hear to annoy them back. Personally I find this a waste of time and I usually find we cut these people from out lives but at times they come back because people love it. hahah, ok maybe they dont. There's a certain type of person that has to be on good terms with everyone so they always try to be friends with you. But like water and oil some people just dont mix.

Point is there is alot of way to manipulate words to manipulate people.

“A great social success is a pretty girl who plays her cards as carefully as if she were plain.”

Today the bus driver on the shuttle bus got mad at this kid cause he had a coffee on the bus. He then proceeded to stuff about ten people infront of that yellow line noone is supposed to be infront of, now that, is dangerous. Anyhow there was one girl in the middle of the crowd of people who had nothing to hold onto so this guy grabbed her and started holding her arm so she wouldn't fall suddenly, that was okay.
I guess when people are so close they can practically kiss then somehow talking just comes easy. It's probably not a good idea to get within inches of someone you don't know to strike up a conversation but the idea that people bond in hard times has always amazed me. I truly believe people prefer to be in a state of drama at all times.
There something about disaster, or lesser hard times that breaks down all the rules of our tendency to not talk to random people. Its okay though, alot of people from non American cultures say that its so hard to talk to people here cause were not very open to it. Maybe people from other cultures are more crammed into society? All this space in Canada is making us unsociable.

Drivers Education

Apparently im a terrible driver. I thought I was pretty good but my sister tells me Im bad. It seems like every time I drive someones honking or getting mad.
Honestly there is way too many grey areas when it comes to the driving rules.
Just today I decided to cross the intersection on yellow, not exceptionally fast, there was traffic, but enough room on the other side for me. A bus driver come up beside my car and started like pointing and shaking his head. It made me feel so bad. Yellow means Red is coming; so make up your mind!
Anyway I felt really bad but honestly there are COPS to make me feel bad I dont need bus drivers bothering me too. A lady, yesterday, honked at me cause I turned onto the road as she was coming down, she had her flicker on; indicating she was turning onto my street,but no! She turned like five streets after!? You cant do that I should have honked at her!
So I decide maybe ill be more careful. I was waiting to turn but there was oncoming traffic like 20 cars passing, taking longer than usual. A few times there was a moment wher ei could have sped through but maybe they'd hit me and honk so I waited.The guy behind me gets mad cause its taking me too long so he speeds around me aggressively! So I dont know?! Do you be ruthless when you drive or do you be courteous, seems like both get you in trouble. I hate driving sometimes.

Faux Friends

Sometimes I wonder why guys do the things they do. For ex: the guy at the gym who offered to bring me a pair of Giant White Shiny work out gloves (before he even asked me I noticed them from across the gym and thought to myself how ugly they were, little did I know I would soon be offered a pair of my very own)Anyway, super nice gesture. Super random gesture.

I asked a few of my guy friends why this man age, aprox: 48 would go out of this way to offer me something like that. They all said that he obviously wants to date you/see you. You know what I mean. But really are you sure? I mean he knows I have to be about 20 years younger than him, it would be so random if thats what he was trying to do.

Theres also a man at work. Hes like maybe 15-20 years older than me, he keeps asking me if I wanna talk on the phone even though i told him at the beginning of the summer no. A) you can tell hes older then me cause he wants to talk on the phone; who does that anymore? B) Why? We can just talk at work. All my guy friends say that he wants something more but I really think that its so far fetched that cant possibly be true.

So are the guys right in saying that some men will pull any stunt to see what happens? Or, do guys just want to be super nice and want to really be friends? I have a theory that males do not just want to be friends with females. Its impossible just watch "When Harry Met Sally" and you'll understand what I mean. So I dont know what to think, I do think that their approach is somewhat funny though.

(After posting this I talked to my friend about how he was asked for my number so I played the whole well give me yours and ill call you. Anyway never let that person touch your phone because I checked outgoing calls and lo and behold he called himself from my phone mid conversation. So now he has my number. So Sneaky/ Creepy)

The mark of a successful man is one that has spent an entire day on the bank of a river without feeling guilty about it.

Sometimes i just wanna break something! I dunno what it is all the sudden im set off and Im feeling outta control anger. I thought about kicking the bus stop window, i thought about hitting this random girl... but shes innocent and i dont want to hurt people. I wanna break my ipod, break my phone, something to make me feel less tense about how school made me miss the bus! Sometimes its these small things like missing the bus that set off an obviously bigger problem.

I dont even know if its anger, stress, anxiety. Alot of people have anxiety these days but i dunno if i do. I dont really know the true definition of stress. Even though you may have time to relax and go to the gym and watch tv doesnt mean you arent stressed! Because i do all those things but i think im a la max stressed out.
One indication is that fact ive been eating so much chocolate and today after class my class mates and i went to the pub and got beer and food and one guy even had to take some shots to chill out. Nothing like a drink to take the edge off.

“The busy man is troubled with but one devil; the idle man by a thousand”

I hate how people these days always have to be doing something! Even myself i find it difficult to just be. Some would consider this time wasted by being completely idle but sometimes its nice to not have anything to do.
I always look forward to Tuesday's because i don't have anything scheduled to do. However today is Tuesday and im feeling kinda restless because im not doing anything in particular. Even though i have started a paper, sent several important emails, dropped my car and my grandmas car off at the garage, cleaned the house... (seems like alot) im feeling like im wasting time. What is considered not being lazy?
Truth is every time im not busy i feel lost because i have no idea what i should do. Sometimes its nice to just do nothing even if to me that means doing all the above mentioned, which to some people might seem like alot. Truth is we can always be doing something better with our time. That doesnt mean we need to be though.