Who are you?

If you didnt notice I have a Stats Counter that tells me EVERYTHING but i understand nothing from it lol! its complicated but i can see things like where people view my page from, what keywords bring up my blog, what pages people enter into the blog on. Ip addresses, returning visitors etc. But i dont know who they are! These are places people visit from, the percentage and in the first column how many visits.
437 87.40% Canada Canada
45 9.00% United States
7 1.40% Satellite Provider
3 0.60% Singapore
2 0.40% United Kingdom
2 0.40% India India
1 0.20% Russian Federation
1 0.20% Norway Norway
1 0.20% United Arab Emirates
1 0.20% Mexico

Great debates:

Besides that which happens in the am between how much milk and cereal is left in your bowl, and how your going to proportionally work it out, there is the debate about second chances.

Some say that second chances don't matter because people never change, some say that we all deserve a second chance. When it comes to how you feel about someone how do we proportionally work it out? Do we give them a second chance to grow on you or do we decide that even though we've learned so little about someone; is it enough to just know?
Another question, how much does liking someone have to do with the things they've said to you, done to you etc. Id say not much because sometimes people like people that they've never been introduced to. So when it comes to Love is it not supposed to be based on instant gut feeling? Is a second chance really going to change anything that you dont already know?

An Ellipsis is all I can say.

Pour toi (...)

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Scorpio

The Scorpio female is an independent soul. She possesses a forbidding, keep-your-distance manner that often hides a secretive and sensitive heart. This is a woman who will risk all for love and not count the cost, but can become bitterly disappointed if her judgment is proved wrong. Undeniably romantic by nature, she demands the near-impossible of those she loves. However, this female is quick to assess personalities and situations, able to put her finger on the crux of a question or circumstance immediately, seeing through all the dross, ignoring the veneer and getting to the truth. In addition, this woman is often at least a little psychic. She will make a number of good friends, usually keeping them all her life, and her sympathy and understanding are extended to all who come in contact with her. Still, the woman ruled by Scorpio does make for a formidable enemy. She rarely creates animosity willingly, but is sometimes driven into situations that make her the center of some manifestation of jealousy. The contradiction of the Scorpio female character is rather puzzling to some people and endlessly fascinating to others. Outwardly, this always seems to be a relatively selfish woman who gives the appearance of self-centeredness in her concentration on personal affairs and the affairs of loved ones. Still, she can be capable of incredible self-sacrifice. In essence, no two acquaintances will ever view this female in the same manner for she will present a different facet of her personality to each one. As a sweetheart, the Scorpio female is exciting. As a life partner, she is appealing in her determination to be the best possible companion. As a mother, she will be both understanding and disciplinary.
Basically an old-fashioned individual, the woman ruled by Scorpio is loyal and courageous. She enjoys responsibility and is very capable. With a great love of luxury. The difference in the atmosphere will very much depend on this female's intensity of feelings. She is a blunt and fearless character, doing everything passionately from the depths of her heart. Her devotion to loved ones is whole-hearted and can almost verge upon idolization at times. Rarely shy by nature, the Scorpio woman has a very healthy appetite for the physical aspect of a romantic relationship.

“Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.”

I don't usually give up easily, but sometimes your forced to and it sucks. I recently read something that said 'quit competing with others and start competing with yourself'. I find that I do both, im competitive with others and i am also hard on myself, competing with myself for the best.
I usually refuse to give up on anyone or anything unless im told I have to. I keep forgetting though, that giving up doesnt mean that you dont care anymore, it just means that its out of your control.
I have a hard time accepting that things are out of my control but clearly things are, especially other peoples emotions.
I hate the feeling of giving up a thousand times. Where you tell yourself you'll stop trying and then you push a little and fail. I hate that feeling where your starting back at square one again and you need to prove to yourself that your done trying. Or are we trying by not trying?
Sometimes we hope that putting no effort will show that we are able to move on and live withouht, but i believe that we are trying to convince ourselves of this while still hoping well get what we wanted all along. So when do we ever really stop trying, if were still thinking about it?

What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything? -V VG

I was recently contemplating the meaning of life. I know that sounds excessive and dramatic but i was just pondering the question because there were children screaming around me and often people say; to have offspring is why we are here. I thought that if we looked at how other species live we could come up with a good reason why we are here. All other species, according to Darwin, and what seems to make the most obvious sense are regulated by survival of the fittest, where only fit individuals in life are able to reproduce and continue on. We work everyday and exercise and do things to make us happy, to ensure health, well being and survival in the most fulfilling way. Unfortunately most of the world isnt run on Social Darwinism which is often contradictory and exploits ideas of survival of the fittest. It commonly refers to notions of struggle for existence being used to justify social policies which show no sympathy for those unable to support themselves.
I think that when we were put here maybe it was thought that we'd always run at a reproduction level that could still be regulated by survival of the fittest, but unfortunately/(fortunately) our world caters to those who are sick, weak and anyone who is dependent on a drug or help etc etc. Its hard to accept SD as a way of living because a mother wont leave a child to die but in the animal world she often will in order to survive herself. (sad)
I was debating the over population of the earth with my collegues, i was arguing the theory around Social Darwinism and eugenics (selective breeding of humans) while they brought in the ethics and culture and all the other things that have changed the reason why society isnt solely run by survival of the fittest. They claimed society doesnt work that way and i disagreed by pointing out that men prefer women who show features of fertility and women those of men that project high levels of testostrone. Both in an attempt to mate with strong individuals, the men want a woman who can have many children and the woman wants children who will survive. Obvisouly social constructions and trends have ruined this by suggesting otherwise.
So the meaning to life may be to have children, but they are supposed to be good children who are the cream of the crop. However today our society will allow a person who has no home and no food to breed and somehow this child will still survive through donations and the support from society. I would never suggest we not help those in need but society, culture, ethics, medicine and the extreme advancements in comparative to chimps, that maybe our creator didnt think we'd accomplish, have made it difficult to answer the question as to why we are here.

The bravest are surely those who have the clearest vision of what is before them, glory and danger alike, and yet notwithstanding, go out to meet it.”

I wanted to dedicate this entry to Bravery because it is seldom mentioned.

brav·er·y (brv-r, brvr)
n. pl. brav·er·ies
1. The condition or quality of being brave.
2. Splendor or magnificence; show.
3. Facing pain and fear with courage

I think that we lack bravery not because of the inability to be in such a state, but by the lack of situations, in the modern world, that require its presence. I feel we turn more to courage and confidance, which is likely, by definition, a synonym of bravery but lacks the honor and magnificence that bravery exudes when mastered.

“The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight because by then, your body and your fat are really good friends”

This week I went to Florida, West Palm Beach, on a last minute trip with my sister and her BF. While there we went to Miami for the day to enjoy the beach and the buzz on 'SOBE'. Seeing as how this is where all the celebs go and the Jersey Shore crew, youd assume that things there would be very pretentious in a trendy way. When we were on the beach there were alot of ladies with no tops on. We talked about how we could never do that, ha for god sakes we were afraid of how we looked carrying a cooler and chairs to the beach because we werent sure if people in Miami did this. To be honest though everyone there is a tourist anyway, and its actually kind of ghetto. Alot of Florida is kind of ghetto actually.
It wasnt exactly what i expected, but nonetheless it was very nice and enjoyable. We went into a starbucks and I practiced my order at least 5 times in my head before telling the lady. Seeing as how this was Miami I figured the accuracy of ordering coffee correctly was a big thing here, and it's best to be prepared. Well i was wrong, it was probalby the worst Starbucks order ever, the woman had me repeat it twice and then she told the guy who makes the drinks i wanted 'lots and lots of whip' when i definitely said no whip. She then proceeded to ask me to confirm if i was on vacation or not, implying i should be indulging. No thanks.
I know they say that Canada is right behind the US in weight issues... well i dont know about that.... everyone was overweight by alot in FL! It was pretty bad even the skinny people were at least a little overweight. I wasnt surprised though, all the food portions were huge and very greasy. It really made me appreciate home. I love Montreal.

Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name
It's heartbreak warfare