Faux Friends

Sometimes I wonder why guys do the things they do. For ex: the guy at the gym who offered to bring me a pair of Giant White Shiny work out gloves (before he even asked me I noticed them from across the gym and thought to myself how ugly they were, little did I know I would soon be offered a pair of my very own)Anyway, super nice gesture. Super random gesture.

I asked a few of my guy friends why this man age, aprox: 48 would go out of this way to offer me something like that. They all said that he obviously wants to date you/see you. You know what I mean. But really are you sure? I mean he knows I have to be about 20 years younger than him, it would be so random if thats what he was trying to do.

Theres also a man at work. Hes like maybe 15-20 years older than me, he keeps asking me if I wanna talk on the phone even though i told him at the beginning of the summer no. A) you can tell hes older then me cause he wants to talk on the phone; who does that anymore? B) Why? We can just talk at work. All my guy friends say that he wants something more but I really think that its so far fetched that cant possibly be true.

So are the guys right in saying that some men will pull any stunt to see what happens? Or, do guys just want to be super nice and want to really be friends? I have a theory that males do not just want to be friends with females. Its impossible just watch "When Harry Met Sally" and you'll understand what I mean. So I dont know what to think, I do think that their approach is somewhat funny though.

(After posting this I talked to my friend about how he was asked for my number so I played the whole well give me yours and ill call you. Anyway never let that person touch your phone because I checked outgoing calls and lo and behold he called himself from my phone mid conversation. So now he has my number. So Sneaky/ Creepy)

The mark of a successful man is one that has spent an entire day on the bank of a river without feeling guilty about it.

Sometimes i just wanna break something! I dunno what it is all the sudden im set off and Im feeling outta control anger. I thought about kicking the bus stop window, i thought about hitting this random girl... but shes innocent and i dont want to hurt people. I wanna break my ipod, break my phone, something to make me feel less tense about how school made me miss the bus! Sometimes its these small things like missing the bus that set off an obviously bigger problem.

I dont even know if its anger, stress, anxiety. Alot of people have anxiety these days but i dunno if i do. I dont really know the true definition of stress. Even though you may have time to relax and go to the gym and watch tv doesnt mean you arent stressed! Because i do all those things but i think im a la max stressed out.
One indication is that fact ive been eating so much chocolate and today after class my class mates and i went to the pub and got beer and food and one guy even had to take some shots to chill out. Nothing like a drink to take the edge off.

“The busy man is troubled with but one devil; the idle man by a thousand”

I hate how people these days always have to be doing something! Even myself i find it difficult to just be. Some would consider this time wasted by being completely idle but sometimes its nice to not have anything to do.
I always look forward to Tuesday's because i don't have anything scheduled to do. However today is Tuesday and im feeling kinda restless because im not doing anything in particular. Even though i have started a paper, sent several important emails, dropped my car and my grandmas car off at the garage, cleaned the house... (seems like alot) im feeling like im wasting time. What is considered not being lazy?
Truth is every time im not busy i feel lost because i have no idea what i should do. Sometimes its nice to just do nothing even if to me that means doing all the above mentioned, which to some people might seem like alot. Truth is we can always be doing something better with our time. That doesnt mean we need to be though.